Welcome to my little online sanctuary where I share my ever-evolving perspective on Intuition, Soul Gifts/Purpose and Conscious Creation.
I also share the tools and practices I'm using to move beyond resistance, to follow my Soul's most authentic desires, and to awaken, embody + share the love and creativity within me so I can be the mother, wife and friend I want to be.
The information I share is Truth as I understand it in the moment.
Our individual journeys are unique and deeply personal. We are each responsible for our own relationship with our Higher Self/God/Spirit/Source and our understanding of Truth. We must look within ourselves to discern what feels "right."
I share from my heart with the intention that others will take what they find helpful and leave the rest.
I will passionately share what has been meaningful and practical for me (and others I care about), but I have no intention of convincing anyone to walk a certain path nor do I think any one path is superior.
I believe God is all powerful and unconditionally loving. I believe God is the Source of all life, the very power that animates us. There is nothing we could ever do to separate from this life force, but when we aren't conscious of this union, we may suffer greatly.
I have dedicated my life to being as conscious as I am able to God's unconditional love and presence. I have looked for (and found) wisdom and truth in various religions, spiritual texts, New Age philosophies, teachings on Universal Law, metaphysics, quantum physics and other scientific theories...you name it!
God is everywhere! I've simply followed my intuition and explored whatever I felt compelled to.
My intuition has led me to deep study of mind, body and soul.
My formal education includes:
A Bachelor's in Psychology from The University of Colorado in Boulder.
A Masters in Expressive Arts Therapy and Counseling with a Specialization in Dance Therapy from Lesley University in Cambridge, Massachusetts.
A Masters in Acupuncture and Oriental Medicine from The Asian Institute of Medical Studies in Tucson, Arizona.
- If you're unclear about your Soul's most authentic gifts and Purpose,
- If you've been battling resistance and self-sabotage (often expressed as procrastination, confusion, overwhelm, self-doubt, starting & stopping, shiny object syndrome, other distractions!),
- If you struggle to discern intuitive guidance from ego interference,
- or if you're just looking for a community of other empathic, heart-focused leaders to connect with,
perhaps you'll feel at home here.
I often get asked about my personal story so I decided to share more here. If you'd like to know some of the mental, emotional, physical and spiritual obstacles I've faced along the way, keep reading below.
Why Can't I Just Be Normal?
I’ve asked myself this question millions of times over the years. I spent SO much time and energy living in the push-pull of wanting to “fit in” and be a “good girl” and feeling deep within my heart that I just wasn’t built for “the normal life” (whatever that means). And this fear and self-doubt held me back for years. It literally drained my energy, kept me sick and tired, anxious, overwhelmed and kept me from fully living the AUTHENTIC, INSPIRED life I was meant to live.
One day, as young girl at home in Okemos, Michigan, I was sitting on a step pondering life. I thought about all the dreams I had and wrote them out, one by one. Like many girls my age I wanted a good education, an enjoyable career and to someday marry an amazing man and have children. I wanted to travel the world and experience life to the fullest. There was one thing on my list, however, that might surprise you…
I had once read a book called, “Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah,” by Richard Bach. And so, neatly written on my list, among the trips to Paris and getting my Masters degree, I wrote of how I wanted to be like the Reluctant Messiah…I wanted to know my Oneness with all of the Universe/Source/God. I wanted to remember the Truth of who I AM and enjoy that feeling of connection and peace. I wanted to inspire others to live their Truth as well. As I looked over my list I decided, more than anything else, I wanted to remember my connection to Source. I put a black line through everything else and circled my intention…”to know my Oneness with God.” Then I closed my little notebook (the one with the fairy on the cover) and went about my day.
A few months later the unthinkable happened. I was told I would not be able to have children. I was devastated…”how could this be? It’s just not fair. Why can’t I just BE NORMAL?” The pain seemed all-consuming, and yet there was a tiny, glimmer of light that beckoned me. Somewhere in the darkness there was the slightest inclination that everything was going to be ok. I completely forgot about the fairy notebook and my intention to know my Oneness with the Universe. I completely forgot about my desire to inspire others and support them in living an authentic, peaceful life. I completely forgot.
And yet, the glimmer of light called to me. I started reading every Spiritual book I was drawn to. I learned about meditation, mindfulness, the Laws of the Universe, affirmations, metaphysics...I even tried to wrap my mind about quantum physics! And as much as the light comforted me, it also scared me. I felt like a complete weirdo. Sure, my friends loved me, but they didn’t understand me. I could count on one hand the number of people I talked to about my deepest thoughts and feelings. I felt like I didn’t fit in and that scared me.
In the midst of all this soul searching and discovery, I was in school trying to figure out “what I wanted to be when I grow up.” Like many 19 year olds, I had no idea how to settle such matters. So, I decided the best plan was to follow my heart. I knew all about intuition and had experienced some pretty miraculous things when I trusted it in the past. And so I did my best to let my heart guide me.
Here’s the thing about following the heart…it’s COMPLETELY unpredictable. To an outsider, a girl following her heart looks a lot like a leaf dancing in the breeze. And for me that’s pretty much how it felt.
I followed my heart from sea to shining sea, up mountains, across meadows to skyscrapers and Swiss chalets. I followed my inspiration, but I questioned my intuition every step of the way. “What if I’m wrong?” I was willing to walk my own path, but I resented it. I resented my inspiration. “Why couldn’t I just feel inspired to fit in?
With that kind of internal turmoil and tension, it’s no surprise that I struggled with self-worth. I had a hard time with self nurturing (nutrition and exercise), my weight fluctuated by 5-10 pounds, I had some pretty crappy relationships, mismanaged my money and stayed in unsatisfying friendships. I was overwhelmed with uncertainty and feelings of shame and inadequacy. But most of the world would never have known, because in spite of all of the stress, I was still pretty happy, hopeful and optimistic a lot of the time.
But I was definitely NOT thriving. I would often tell myself that my current dis-ease was “temporary” and everything would get better soon.
And so I continue to follow my intuition. I taught pre-school and middle school; I taught dance and yoga to adults. I got a Masters in Dance Therapy and LOVED every minute of it. Then I followed my heart to Hollywood and sang songs about following my heart and being authentic. With each calling I thought for sure I had found my “life’s work” and would finally be able to “settle down” like normal people and create some stability for myself. But then my heart would call another call…always something outside of my comfort zone and something that looked and sounded absurd. Always something that expanded my horizons. Always a call I knew I couldn’t ignore.
I wondered what my “problem” was. “Why can’t I just be NORMAL?”
When I got the call to go to medical school I was furious. I already had enormous debt. “I needed a J-O-B, NOT MORE SCHOOLING!” I tried to ignore it. I refused to speak of the notion or give it any attention whatsoever. “There’s NO way!” That lasted about 2 days. It didn’t take long before resisting the thought was more unbearable than entertaining it. Panic ensued as I explored the possibility of med school. Eventually I found my way to acupuncture school and thought I had FINALLY discovered “WHAT I wanted to be when I grow up.” THANK GOD!! Yeah…Chinese Medicine is “alternative,” but not too far outside the box these days. I was very happy.
I graduated from acupuncture school and was overflowing with inspiration and joy. I was so excited to support people in their health and wellbeing. Everything was falling into place. I was creating my business just the way I wanted it. THIS was what I worked so hard for…this was totally worth the wait.
And I would wake up every morning and say my intention, “to serve in the Highest possible way.” (Believe me if you say that prayer every day and MEAN it…your life WILL change!)
Within weeks of opening it became clear to me that my “acupuncture” practice was also going to include health and wellness coaching (ohhh…so THAT’S why my intuition guided me to a position as a Health Coach with the Wellness Council for 4 years!)
And then came the real kicker…I realized I had to come out of the “Spiritual closet.” OH NO!! I admitted to myself that healing is a Spiritual experience and it would be a disservice to not talk about Spiritual practices and principles with my clients. And my practice expanded and changed and it was all good.
Until...
At the end of my first year in business I felt very sad. I knew I was being called to expand, but I was very attached to my life as it was. I resisted and hoped I would “snap out of it,” but instead the call got louder.
And so, in time, I admitted that I had an expanded vision and things were changing. I knew the time had come to close my acupuncture clinic and SHARE all the insights I had about Intuition, Healing, Self-Love, Relationship, Abundance, Peace, Joy, Living On Purpose and Partnering with Source Energy/God.
Once I made this decision, life began to move very quickly for me.
I started to feel so much gratitude for the intuitive gifts that I had resented for so long. My talent to teach, guide, and mentor began taking my students and clients to places of major transformation.
I began to really get honest about my sense of self-worth.
And the truth is…it wasn’t pretty! I had to consciously look at all the ways I was undervaluing myself:
- workaholism and believing that my productivity and drive determined my value.
- servitude and over-giving.
- difficulty saying no and setting appropriate boundaries.
- judging my uniqueness and feeling bad about being different.
And through this process I discovered the key to healing: AUTHENTICITY.
Once I stopped resenting my intuition and started to turn within for every decision (not just the “big” ones), I started to feel more peace. I stopped feeling bad about doing things differently and started to celebrate my unique gifts and talents. I started taking INSPIRED action and feeling the ease and grace of LOVINGLY and JOYFULLY following inner guidance. I have been following my intuition all of my life, but now I do so with JOY. And the only way to experience peace and wellbeing is to CLAIM it! Claim your authentic, Divine Gifts! Embrace your Purpose and Embody it! But first you have to believe in your birthright to THRIVE, otherwise, you will continue to spend a lot of time and energy questioning, resenting, doubting and struggling.
I now teach and mentor other Spiritually minded people to claim and embody their Soul's Authentic Personality which I help them discover through my work as a certified Soul Realignment (R) practitioner. I work with clients, virtually, from all over the world. They are highly-conscious people who have really good lives, but just can’t seem to get all the ducks in a row and really step into a feeling of ease and grace, peace, abundance and joy; people who are sick and tired of being sick and tired and telling themselves “someday.” The Truth is you can have everything you want in life, but until you feel the peace, joy and inspiration that comes with letting go of “normal” and BEING AUTHENTIC, you just won't be able to let go of anxiety, overwhelm and feelings of lack and limitation.
So now the only question is…
“Why can’t you just BE YOU…and wake up every day feeling refreshed, inspired and ready to share your unique gifts and talents?”
Not only is this the life experience you deserve, but it's the life you are meant to have. And just imagine all the people you will inspire because the more you step up into living the authentic life you want, the more you inspire others to create that for themselves as well. YAY!!