There it was, the painful belief that had been running my subconscious mind, brought to light.
Ugh.
I had received a miracle and my desire had come to fruition, but…
not the way I wanted it to.
A mountain had moved to make A way, but it wasn’t THE way I intended or prayed for.
That “but” translated to the belief I was now confronting,
“Either I’m a failure or God is a liar.”
In the light I could see clearly.
My story.
My need to control what God’s restoration, healing and provision should look like.
My ignorance.
My arrogance.
My perfectionism.
My attachment to my shame.
My compulsion to “find evidence” that I’m STILL not enough, still unworthy and unlovable.
Once a belief is known and brought to light it loses all power.
We can choose to see truth.
We can choose to release and let go.
We can decide to forgive.
We can decide to trust our path and surrender to it.
We can decide to RECEIVE the blessing knowing God is good all the time.
We can choose to look for the evidence that our co-creation with God is good ALL the time –
That our soul’s highest path works for the highest and best good of all, always and in ways we may never know from our human perspective.
We can choose to allow the sensations of love and gratitude to permeate every cell of our bodies without reverting back to the old familiar feelings of shame and lack.
In the light we can receive the fullness of the miracle and see…
We are, and have always been, successful and God is the Truth that sets us free.
Our job is not to know, nor to control, the how.
Our job is to recognize our God given desire, to say yes, and follow the guidance we’re given to allow life/God to create through us.
xoxo